Thursday, February 28, 2013

JUST FOR YOU BABA


Why is it that your memories
Have come revisiting me today?
Many years after you left us
So suddenly and so quietly
Holding us back from taking you
To a refuge of prolonged life

There were days when you blessed me
But never hugged me even though
You had wanted to do so very often
Maybe I didn’t allow your feelings
To come avalanching on me
Fearing that I might not want to change

Our worlds I still believe were so different
You were caught up in a time
That I never was eager to inhabit
And between us was torn apart
A mother, a wife stuck in juxtaposition
Endeavoring to pacify the unleashed tempers

You might not have agreed with all my
Lunatic decisions that invited emotional disasters
But you silently stood by as a spectator
Wanting to help me out instantly
But you never discouraged me
From fighting back with restless grit

It was only this morning that I felt
You were standing by my side and telling me
I want to come back to you from somewhere
You are not liking it there so alone so rare
But I am clueless as to how I can bring you here
A world you had never liked when you were there

Maybe it is about that house that you had once
Spent your childhood in which is leaving you
Feeling anxious about its future or maybe
It is about the lane you had walked alone
In your youthful days to prove that you
Were born always a strong winner

I can’t promise you but I will try my level best
To bring you back to where you wanted to be
And left so suddenly with your desires left
Unfulfilled and unachieved so unknowingly
Maybe I too am waiting for you to come back
To me in a way you had always wanted to be…

This is just for you Baba my loving Baba
From the son whom you had wanted to be a rebel
Let me tell you I have grown into the same rebel
Disagreeing over wrongs and fighting for rights
Walking not like you but maybe dreaming a lot
Like you the way you did with my loving mother

-vociferous